It's been very difficult on me, both emotionally and financially, to travel to Dallas every 6 to 12 weeks to visit Mom. Not only do I miss her so much but, the changes in her health have dramatically changed from one visit to the next. Till now, this journey had brought on emotions of frustration and irritation as Mom's personality changed. Now, I am going through an emotional helplessness being separated from her like we are. My entire life, I have lived within miles of her and always saw her on a regular basis. When my family relocated back to San Antonio, Mom followed within 2 years. She loved spending time with my family. She was a wonderful Nana to my children, always helping with homework, going to the movies, park and Dairy Queen for ice cream treats. She was always very thoughtful and never ever forgot birthdays or anniversaries. We spoke often on the phone, just to talk about current events or to say I love you. We hardly got mad at each other and if we did, we seldom stayed mad. Mom and I just can't hold a grudge with each other. She was always the first to run errands with me to squeeze some quality time together. We always had a great time just hanging out and watching movies. Mom has been my biggest advocate and supporter, always providing uplifting advice, hope and inspiration when I needed it. She has been my best friend my whole life!
Growing up, my parents were middle income, Mom always said that we were poor in our pockets but rich in our hearts. She used to tease me that I had champaigne taste on a koolaid pocketbook. Mom was very creative and I never felt like I went without anything. She could take a $5 formal from Solo Service and add her special touches to make me look like a million bucks. She loved shopping and buying discounted items for her grandchildren and me. She love going antiquing and traveling to different places. She was spunky, fun loving and so full of life. Her jolly personality and infectious smile could brighten up my day in a heartbeat. We hugged often, held hands and said I love you more times than I can count. I have never doubted her love for me. After all, she often said that I was her one and only favorite daughter. She signed cards with Enteral love forever, your one & only favorite Mom.
As I reflected on these life changing events these past years, I realize that God has answered one of my prayers. I asked that mother never forget her children and thus far, she hasn't. I will be forever grateful for his loving blessing.
Although, Mom can no longer walk or talk anymore, she still manages to say I love you. Surprisingly, against all odds, Mom continues to love her family. This in itself is the greatest gift in the world to me. No matter how tough this journey has been, Mom always remember to love. She exemplifies the true meaning of unconditional love.
